Love On Band-Aid

by: fangirlcomposer

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JL’s PoV

“Hays,” I let out a sigh as I walked around the area before going back to the dorm. It’s been days…

It’s been days since he confessed, and I still regret not responding immediately.

Maybe things are different today. Maybe he won’t avoid me.

“Tatanggapin man lang ba niya to?” sambit ko as I stare at the Snoopy toy I bought today.

I feel pathetic running around just to find something to give him.

I stared at my own hand with bits of blood after I fell earlier from running just to buy this.

If he doesn’t, then maybe he’s not even serious about me.

Maybe it’s just… a spur of the moment.

I bit my lip hurt just by thinking of that possibility.

If this doesn’t work… then maybe it’s time to let go.

“Steven hyung!!” I shouted as I came home, and as if on autopilot, he walked out of his room, worried.

“What? What is it?” he rushed out, worried.

“I tripped!” I uttered, pouting, showing him both my hands

“What the?! Yence, what are you doing???” He uttered, annoyed, holding my hands and checking them before he pulled me towards the sofa

“It hurts…”

“Wait here, I’ll get the kit”

“At least this way he doesn’t ignore me…” I uttered to myself after he distanced himself from me for days.

Akala ko talaga di niya na ko papansinin after he confessed his feelings, but every time I needed him, he ran back. I just wasn’t able to react that day… I kept wanting to talk to him, yet he walked away.

I still remember that day when we ate out alone

Flashback...

“Yence?”

“Mm? Wow, this tastes so good,” tugon ko sa kanya after I ate pasta

“I… I have something to tell you”

“Eh? What is it?”

“I…”

“What’s wrong? You seem nervous?” I asked worried

“You know we’ve been spending time together alone, right?”

“Yeah? And it’s fun haha”

“Yeah… haha”

“We have same tastes in music and stuff, right? Even your corny jokes, tch”

“You enjoy it though?”

“No?” I joked.

“Are you not tired of us… going out together?”

“What about it?”

“I… i’ve been… wanting those dates”

Him saying those hangouts were dates made my heart flutter.

Kasi para saken date talaga lahat ng yon, but of course we can’t do that. We’re members of a new nine-member boy group who performs for people, and of course I can’t admit my sexuality.

Especially not to him.

Since day one, he’s been with me. So… of course I fell for him, but I didn’t say anything.

He can never feel the same.

He doesn’t like the same gender, and I know it, so here I am just using these hangouts as an excuse to date him.

Because that’s the only way I can be with him

“Yence, are you listening?”

“Huh? W-what? What is it? Sorry”

“I said I like you. Not… not as a friend or as my member… but more than that”

“W-what?”

“I know. But you don’t have to feel guilty or worry about it. I just wanted to let you know. I just needed to release myself from it. If you feel uncomfortable, I’ll distance myself. I’m sorry,” dire diretsong sambit niya before he got up and paid the bill and left.

Not even giving me a single minute to react and say my side…

I tried to run after him that day, but the members told me he went out without saying where.

I tried texting him, but he didn’t respond.

I tried waiting for him every single night, and the members are starting to notice the distance between us as well.

But nothing.

I get nothing but just walking away.

End of flashback

“We only have this melody-designed plaster, but this will do,” sambit niya, as he came back before he started to treat my wounds

“Steven…” I uttered. Leaving out the formality.

“Does it still hurt?”

“Yeah…”

“Where?”

“My heart hurts…” sambit ko, making him stop. Then I continued, “Because you’re walking away…”

“Just forget it,” he uttered, shutting me up immediately. “Forget I even said anything”.

Forget? Does he think it’s that easy??

Nainis ako that I pulled my hand away before he was able to treat it

“You won’t even listen to me; just let me get infections or whatever. I’ll sleep,” iritang sambit ko before I stood up, but he pulled me back down

“You’re hurt!”

“Ano ba?!”

“Yence…”

“Let me go. I don’t want to see you for now,” sambit ko, but he didn’t move.

“I just don’t want my feelings to ruin us…”

“Ruin us??? You think what you’re doing isn’t ruining us?! Ni hindi mo ko binigyan ng chance sumagot!! Hindi mo man lang ako inantay! Gusto din kita eh tangina mo ba?!”

“What?? I only understood your curse”

“Bahala ka dyan, leche!” Iritang sambit ko, walking back out of the dorm.

Siya 'tong nag-confess! Tapos siya 'tong lalayo?! If he cares about my wounds, why doesn’t he care about my feelings with him slipping away?!

Paano naman yung feelings ko?!

“Confessing his feelings then ignoring me… ruin?! Tanginang ruin yan!!” Inis na sambit ko before kicking the stone in front of me

“Uwi na lang ako maaga sa Pinas!!” sigaw ko, wiping my tears away before I turned my back, only to see him standing right behind me.

Why did he even follow me here?!

Maglalakad na sana ako lagpas sa kanya, but he held my arm back.

“Yence…”

“What?! I’m going home!”

“L-let’s talk. Why are you… why are you crying?” He uttered worriedly, pero mas lamang yung inis ko

“Oh, now you wanna talk?? After ignoring me for days?! Not giving me a single minute to explain myself and say what I feel, NOW YOU WANNA TALK?! IF I DIDN’T SCRAPE MYSELF, YOU WOULDN’T EVEN FACE ME!”

“Sorry… I… I just thought—”

“You thought what?!”

“I just thought you wouldn’t feel the same…”

I scoffed, “I HATE YOU”

“Yence…”

“Just tell me if this is all games. Goddammit,” sambit ko, wiping my own tears, “I’ve liked you even before you did, and I was happy you confessed. I couldn’t find the right words, but then… then you chose to just walk away… I-I wanted to explain myself. I wanted to say how happy I was, but then you… you just you…” Sambit ko, crouching down, hugging my knees, crying.

Naghahalo yung inis at kirot ng dibdib ko sa pag-iyak ko. I feel so pathetic.

Then I felt him hold my arm and pull me up before he hugged me as I broke down. Then he started to whisper sorrys to my ears repeatedly, na lalo lang nagpaiyak saken

As he felt me calm down, he pulled away, pero hindi pa rin ako tumitingin sa kanya

“Yence, I’m sorry… I know it was dumb of me. Please… let’s talk it out, okay?”

“What’s the point? You don’t want to ruin the friendship; anyway, let’s just stay as groupmates then. Just let me die or go home. Yeah, I’ll just go home so you won’t see me. Easy right? You won’t have to run every day just to avoid me,” sambit ko as I tried to walk away, but he held me back

“I didn’t want to ruin the friendship because I assumed you didn’t feel the same… I got scared I’m getting rejected, and again I’m sorry… but hearing you today and… and seeing you cry… of course I will goddamn risk it”

“Tch… kung di pa ko iiyak di ako kakausapin gago” sambit ko sa sarili ko as I wipe my tears

“Come on now… Yence… let me make it up to you. Hmm?”

“I even fell buying you Snoopy stuff that I can’t even give because you fucking ignored me… then you tell me not to ruin the friendship…” sambit ko, slapping his chest one at a time, and he just let me before he held them and checked on them

“Let me treat your wound, okay?”

“Don’t bother, just let me die of infection”

“Tsk, stop saying you’ll die, goddammit”

It seemed to trigger something in him; he immediately pulled me back to the dorm and treated my wounds without saying a word

“If you’re just gonna give me this silence and ignore me again, I—“

“I’m sorry. I’ll repeat it a thousand times. I’m sorry for running away. Please… don’t hate me… I just thought after I confessed there’s nothing more to keep between us. I… I am the overthinking type… b-but seeing you cry… it broke me. Knowing it’s my fault… I wanted to slap my face hard for being an idiot,” he uttered as he plastered both my hands

“Tch…”

“Yence…”

“What happens now?”

“What do you mean?”

“Just tell me if you’re going to continue ignoring me, because if you will, I’d rather just quit this whole thing and leave you alone for good and go back to the Philippines.”

“No. God, no. Please don’t do that.” He uttered. This time, sounding scared.

“You should’ve thought about it before you ignored me. If I didn’t hurt myself, what? Had you continued doing this? I’ve liked you since universe league. Goddamn, I was happy you felt the same, but what? You ignored me after confessing?”

“Since… since Universe League?” Hindi makapaniwalang sambit niya.

“Yeah. So it took me a while to process your words that day because I was too happy. But you didn’t even let me explain,” sambit ko na niiyak na naman.

He knelt in front of me this time and cupped my face

“I’m sorry, baby… I didn’t know… I’m sorry,” he uttered, wiping my tears this time

“Stop running away from me…”

“I will. I’m really sorry. I love you… I love you so much, Yence”

—FIN